Ups and Downs.....but mostly Ups

Well, its been awhile! Guess I have been in pretty good spirits. Last month was a write off when it came to TTC. DH was away during the good times, so I wasn't even upset when I got AF. But in good news, I was taking B6 to try and lengthen my lutuel phase and it worked. AF was almost 2 days late and I wasn't even really consistent on the B6, maybe taking it every second day or so! I was really impressed and amazed at how the body works.

This is a new month though and I have high hopes. I feel like a freakin cheer leader. I wish I knew when I was going to ovulate but I guess we are just going to have to have a bunch of sex. DH is working outside right now and told me that it was almost time to start screwing (the deck) and I said ok, get inside and then told him to be on the safe side that we must indulge in each other every 12 hours for the next week!!!! But I refuse to have sex cuz we HAVE to, I will only have sex when we WANT to have it.

My bestest friend called me the other day. I knew something was up cuz I just talked to him the other day and he said just hold on a second and I have to tell u something. At that point I knew what was up and I whispered into DH's ear that his girlfriend must be expecting. Sure enough, he finally spit it out that they were indeed expecting. He felt bad, it took him a while to tell him and he even said that he doesn't know how to say this to me and about how he felt bad telling me cuz we were trying and they weren't, etc. I held it together on the phone, I slightly broke down but hid my tears. As soon as I hung up though, DH asked me if I was ok and I just raced into the house bursting into tears for a few moments. I felt utterly selfish and like a horrible friend. I was happy for him but why was I crying for myself? I got over it though (in a big hurry because I didn't like how selfish I felt) and felt happy for my friend. I hope everything works out for him. Him and his gf have only been dating for a little while (6-9 months maybe) and they have a lot going on in their lives right now. But I'm going to be an auntie, he is going to be a good dad so all is good in the hood.

Nothing else is too exciting. We bought a quad and have been making all sorts of plans for next summer, for camping and quadding. Hopefully though, I'll be very pregnant or have a little baby. Maybe this will be our month though, my best friend and I are psychic friends and nothing more would please any of us if we were to have a baby at the same time. Hopes and dreams.

DH and I each have appointments for a physical next month. So that will be interesting. We have to go meet our DR first though, apparently he won't look at our private bits without meeting us first. So when we go, I'm going to discuss our family planning and will ask what sort of testing he will do or if he would just give us a referal to the fertility clinic here in town. I'd rather know now rather than later and I don't care if we have to pay for it.

But I should run. Maybe go help DH work around the yard, I don't feel too bad for slacking though, as I cooked and completely cleaned up from our first thanksgiving supper last night. Tata for now!