Can I Control Myself???

I've had such a peaceful month so far, DH has been out of town for work for my entire cycle, so I had no TWW. No stress, no thinking too much, over-anaylzing or worrying.....its been awesome. Now DH is home and I am waiting for AF to show and then I am going to begin my second round of clomid. I really want to keep the peace though and I'm not sure how I am going to work that. I still want to count out to ovulation so that we can BD at the appropriate times but I don't want all the stress that is associated with the TWW.

How do I do this?

I hear so many people that take breaks on TTC and suddenly get pregnant that month but we aren't taking a break, we are using clomid so its going to be in my head. I think I will try meditation but I can't meditate all day.

We are planning a trip home at the end of the month so that is something to look forward too but that is right at the end of my TWW. Eeeek! I should just throw myself into exercise every time I think about babies.

Great news, last year a girl on a board that I belong too lost her baby while she was in the 8th month of pregnancy. She tried so hard to get pregnant and finally resulted in her pregnancy with IVF and then god took her baby away. I was so sad for her. I went to a fertility shrine and prayed for her, me, my BFF and another girl on that same board that had been TTC for way too long. Sure enough when I got home the one girl was pregnant and now almost a year later the other board member is pregnant. Hhhhmmmm, I am truly happy for her, no jealousy whatsoever.

Well I'm not sure if I'll be back or not for a while, as this is my blog about TTC and if I'm writing on here that means that I'm thinking about it!

Please pray for us and wish us luck!!!