Giving Up

Part of me wants to give up TTC. I'm just so frustrated. As I am watching Jon and Kate Plus 8 and all the pregnancy commercials just make me angry and so freaking mad. I'm just so mad at my body, I don't understand why we are not making babies. Last month we had lots of freakin sex, every morning. I layed in bed with a pillow under my butt for like 15 minutes after sex. I took my vitamins, I pretty much quit drinking in the TWW. DH has been taking maca. We've eaten healthy, drank lots of water...... The only thing I have left to do is quit thinking.

Maybe that is my problem, probably is. I was obsessive in the last week before my period. I'm going to stay mad at my body and myself. Maybe that will help me.

I just wish I had some one in real life who could understand the shit that is going on with me. Everyone I know gets pregnant right away. Actually, one of my BFF's hasn't gotten pregnant yet and they have been trying for a year but it doesn't seem to bug her or she just doesn't let me know how much is does bug her. I try and talk to her about it but I just sound liike a crazy freak. Maybe I will call her......

Stupid body.....