Not Caring

Just signing into blog even though I don't care anymore about TTC. I'm doing really well at keeping it out of my head and it seems to be working. I don't think this month is gonna happen cuz DH is out of town but oh well, there will be another month and maye I will try my clomid.

I do care but I can't care. Like last night when my BFF were talking and she said something about never having problems getting pregnant and immediately stopped what she was saying, got a horrible look on her face and but her hand on my knee and apologized and said that she thinks about me lots. It was a small slap to the face and I know she didn't mean anything by it and in a way it was a little bit of a relief cuz atleast I know that she is taking our issues seriously, etc. Then my sister this morning tells me that she has something to tell me that is going to make me very mad....her little school friend that I used to babysit is pregnant. 18 years old, going to college and pregnant. I wasn't mad at all (or jealous). I'M OVER IT.

I hope I can keep this attitude up because I think it is healthy for my head.

I also found the website sparkpeople and I've been tracking my food. I love it and this can be my new internet obsession (instead of baby websites).

DH has a major case of baby fever. Its cute and I bug him.

Anyways, gotta get off of here before I start thinking so much!

TTYL