Clomid

I thought I was doing so good last month, not obsessing about making a baby and then AF decided to show up 2 days early and boy was I devasted. I knew we probably wouldn't get pregnant this cycle but I just hate AF. She is so cruel. I was so angry and sad. I honestly wanted to stay in bed all day and cry but I dragged my ass out of bed and tried to go on with my life.

I started clomid last night after much debate. DH brought up the fact that I don't take aspirin when I have a headache so why the hell would I talk a fertility drug?? I kinda feel like we are cheating god or destiny but maybe this is our destiny?? We talked about it and decided to go thru with it. I want to make progress and see if it works and if not we will get booked into to seeing a fertility specialist.

I just don't how long I can keep going on like this. Getting pregnant is supposed to be easy and no one fucking understands and I'm sick of the comments that it will happen and you have to stop thinking about it. Easy for you to say as you got pregnant within a month. I just wish I had someone in my life who actually understands but I don't wish fertility issues on my worst enemy so its good that I have no one to relate too.

I just hope our time happens soon.......