Side Effects

I'm all done my first round of clomid. Wow! I decided to take the pills right before bed so that I could sleep thru the sideffects. The first night I took them I was all alone so I was kinda freaked out because I was scared that I would over dose or die of an side effect but I woke up fine. Actually I woke up lots throughout the night wondering if I was ok and if I was having a reaction.

DH came home from work the next day. I was very happy for that because I needed him more than ever. Plus he will hopefully be home for lots of BDing! I hate that his job takes him out of town. It is really dampering our TTC efforts. So many months we have been screwed over at ovulation time by him just going to work or he will come home just after ovulation, obviously too late. Oh well, it must not have been our time.

Anyways, back to the clomid. Take it the second night, no problems. The next day DH and I had a lot of running around to do and while we were out and about (generally having an ok time other than a melt down at the grocery store) I say something to DH and he just says, its ok its just the pills talking. Then I started noticing the ill side effect I was encountering.

MOOD SWINGS!

Ack, I'm just an emotional mean mess right now. Its just like PMS (that I just got done with less than a week ago). I had warned DH that a very common side effect was moodiness and I told him that he had to be nice to me and just grin and bear it. He's been doing a pretty good job with it but I'm feeling very bad for him and maybe I will have to do something nice.

Last night we went out to eat. I have eaten out in a long time and was a little anxious because of the whole change of diet recently. But I needed to eat and get out with my hubby man so I put the diet in the back of my head and had some mozzarella sticks as an appy, a disguistingly fattening plate of mac and cheese and dessert! We each got a little dessert with our meal and as we were ordering I said cheese cake and was about to make a suggestion to DH about what he should get (cuz I've been having PMS like food cravings too) he said chocolate sundae! Exactly what I wanted. I felt very much in love with my DH that he could read me and know me like that. So I told him now every time that I'm grumpy that he should just said chocolate sundae and I would get a big smile on my face. Lets just say that chocolate sundae has been said a lot around here.

I'm done the pills for a month.....but now what? What should we be doing to make this effective as possible without putting too much thought and effort into something that is supposed to be so natural? I think I'm going to use OPK's but I wanna do my homework on if I should take mucinex or just use preseed. I have noticed that I have hardly had an CM this month and last month I had lots. I've been trying to drink a lot of water. But should we stick the every second day BD? Which I don't want to because we just went without for 3 weeks and we have a lot of catching up to do. Should I lay in bed with my hips elevated for 20 minutes.

Ugh, why can't we just fuck, clean up the after mess and cuddle and make babies like everyone else????????????????????

Dh has baby fever. Last night as we were walking into the resturant we held the door open for a young family and little maybe 1 year was toddling out and DH was trying to talk to him and give him big smiles. That made my heart smile and hurt at the same time. I want to give him that and share that with him but why haven't I given him that?

I wish he was more involved and I wish I could talk to him more about my thoughts without sounding too crazy and obsessive!

I hope this clomid is going to work for us because I very much do not like the side effects and am thinking that DH will want to shoot me before 3 months is up. I keep buggin the poor guy about the triplets that we are going to make (and name them Jerome, Meeka and Dion after the greatest hockey team ever) and that I read on the interwebz that mood swings carry on for the pregnancy!

Hopefuly I will be back with good news in a couple of weeks!