Still Waiting

I've spent the morning drinking delicous Tim Hortons coffee and reading blogs about TTC. Some of them were very old and not updated but lots of them are now pregnant and unfortunately some are still trying. I love reading that after being so hopeless that they are now pregnant! I so hope I can be one of those blogs one day.

I like reading about other peoples journey in the TTC process. It really gives me hope. Plus I love knowing that I'm not the only crazy obsessive woman out there. Its so hard to keep all my emotions all bundled up and not share them with anyone because no one understands what I am going thru.

The last few nights I have been having baby dreams. The first night it was about me being pregnant and the next night it was about my best friend (who is having a baby). The second dream had me very sad when I woke up. I told DH about my dream and that I was being a funky monkey (my new term that I came up with this week when I was just feeling BLAH). He then asked me if I thought this was our month and how he hoped it was. Very sweet and touching but I crushed those dreams with my funky monkiness and told him that it probably wasn't and that it would not happen.

I am happy to report that I didn't have any baby dreams last night, so that is good. Its not good waking up sad and feeling oh so empty. I was so tired last night that I was in bed around 10pm and sleeping way before 11pm, which is odd for me.

I can't type and drink coffee at the same time so I should run!